Fairytale Wedding

Friday, December 28, 2007 11:36 PM

Of rings and wedding rings

I went walking without direction and I stumbled upon a shop selling rings...wedding rings mostly. There were many designs and as much as I wanted to go in and peek at the lovely choices I felt a deep shame. I knew in my heart it would be pointless. Even if I find the best choice, the best ring, I will not be able to buy it. Would it still be there if my time comes?

This year I'm having trouble with my priorities...with so many things that I want to happen...I guess I must choose the more logical one which is to find ways to earn money to pay for the annulment, then second is keeping money for the australian visa or wherever...then work hard to earn money so I can buy a lot that spells the beach life. Then maybe I can get married or maybe just remain like this or whatever I choose it to be.

So really what's the point of staring into rings that may never mean marriage for me? I can buy one of those after a few months of saving...then I'll wear one...then what?

Then I walk away from the store thinking I have more important things to think about...other dreams to pursue...

thoughts of love
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